Act 3: Scene 1

SO LONG....

2006-02-09T05:40:00.000-08:00

I've just returned from the movie theatre. We watched Rang De Basanti. I must say, this movie has shaken me up. I'm still not able to recover from it. I haven't seen such intense emotions and actions anywhere before. It definitely makes you go in a retrospective mode. Its a must see.

I don't know whats wrong with me these days. But I definitely know that I need to do a few things that I've put off for a long time. Like getting over someone. I have this pathetic habit of still being in love with guys I've broken up with. I'm in love with both my exes. So now I have pratically stopped talking with one of them and he gets the same crappy treatment that some of my not so good friends put up with. Like hanging up the phone if I'm doing something, even trivial things like watching movies. I know its not nice but its due to this nice attitude of mine that I'm in trouble right now. I am not gonna try remaining friends with them. I have given up my claim on the one last thing I possessed that was given to me by one of them. In fact I've asked him to go ahead and give it to his current girl friend.I know one of them is going to be reading this and I can't help it if I'm such a disaster. I don't think I can have this 'unrequitted love' thing going on anymore. I'm gonna try to stop being this nice.

I was wondering why I haven't been posting here regularly. I've realised that its because I'm not comfortable posting here anymore. This was my personal blog where I could put up anything without having the fear of being judged. I started blogging coz I like to write. Given the time and the right mood I can come up with interesting write ups but now I have lost the right mindset to write something interesting. So I'm gonna stop blogging. This is my last post. So its good bye and thanks for everything :)

Time for change...

2006-01-16T07:58:00.000-08:00

A new colour....a new nickname...does it make me look evil??? I don't care coz that seems to be my undertone these days...all the guys in my class think twice before playing pranks on me...they know better than to underestimate me...my innocent looks are my greatest assets...along with two others...my winning smile and my expressive eyes ;)...wicked or a simple prankster... depends on your point of view...I don't care...is that the right attitude???.....I just don't care anymore

A different perspective

2006-01-10T05:47:00.000-08:00

I'm obsessed with my looks. No. I'm not incredibly beautiful nor do I give Sushmita Sen a run for her money in sensuality. I'm quite average, in fact there are somedays when I think I look really ugly. I think the obsession stems from the fact that I come from a family where all women are positively beautiful, extremely poised, graceful in every move and to top it off, they have an age defying beauty...my mum and her sisters look like they could be my sisters and my sister and cousins are definitely bombshells in the making. I, on the other hand come nowhere close to them....I could easily pass off as a distant relative. I try to make up for it by dressing well, trying to look somewhere close to well kept (atleast not ugly) and never let go off an occasion to dress up... atleast I manage to have a closet full of smart clothes that'd look good on someone slightly better than me. In the end I do pass off to be having an obsessive compulsive disorder to look good. There are days when a single compliment lights up my day and there are days when I grumble at my mum for not passing down her looks genes to me. All that I've achieved from my obsession is a name for having the best stuff around and the trust of my friends to dress them up... in fact everytime I've helped someone dress they've land up getting asked out (I'm well known for that too). There are times when I give up on myself coz this is what I am and no amount of chemicals is gonna change that.
But today I came across something that really pained my heart. I thanked god for my perfectly formed features and a fully functional body. This is what made me do it. Atleast I don't look repulsive.

P.S.: Nobody could guess what I was trying to tell in my earlier post so I'm gonna give a hint, 'what comes after X's' ...keep guessing :)

The story of my life...

2006-01-07T21:56:00.000-08:00

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And then she left her earthly existence...

quiz time!!!

2005-12-30T07:59:00.000-08:00

Do you ever fall out of love? If yes, how??

well..whatever

2005-12-25T22:18:00.000-08:00

Firstly..bloggie dearie..I'm really sorry abt ignoring you this long and I wish I could put up a strong defence but the thing is I don't really have any defence...yeah so I had to study...I had these baap of all exams called 'endsems' doing bhangra on my head but I can't use that as an excuse to ignore you.
That done..now let me tell you what I've been upto...after the cursed exams which brought me on the verge of nervous breakdown (my friends think I have already passed the limits of nervous breakdown), I went home. After two days of sleeping I was off again on a ten day trip to 'Kerala' the only difference being I visited every other place except Kerala when I had specifically asked to arrange a trip to the God's own country. Anyway...had loads of fun...loads of shopping as usual...did a great job of putting up a happy face. Sometimes its just a pain in the ass to be this ever happy person when theres this whole lot of not-so-joyous emotions bursting to come out. But I know I can't afford to be emotional anymore....so I worked harder than I have ever done before...I think till date I've always had everything, including all my so called achievements handed on a platter to me but this time its a different story all together...the only time I can say I've put in so much effort and I don't even get a hint of results...anyway...for me, life moves on. I'm glad I have my dad supporting me or the world would've seen the end of me a long time back. Like he says, I'm just gonna work hard and satisfy myself with the thought that atleast I didn't give up. But the competitor in me doesn't agree with it...I want results...and fast...lets just hope I'm able to hush up that voice.
After a month of result nightmares, I've been able to take the blow quite well. But theres a limit to my strength...right now I walk around with a smile on my face...the day it gets too much to handle you just might find a pulp of what used to be me on the ground beneath the tallest building around here...Wish me luck for this sem :)
And lastly...I couldn't meet up with any of my friends...and not even call up anybody..and now my friends have been calling me up and using the choicest of words against me...great..it seems to be my turn to build up my foul language vocab :P...I hate doing this to them but then again...I really couldn't help it...my next break is gonna be dedicated to them completely..hope that makes up :)

Me a magnet????

2005-11-21T00:12:00.000-08:00

Yep...I've turned into a magnet. I have the properties of attracting sleazeballs...the choicest of them. Some guys here tend to think that just coz I'm from Bombay I might have loose morals. So let me see, for the four months that I have stayed here, I have had the following guys hit on me,

a class I romeo who thinks all girls are his play things and thinks that when I say a no I mean a yes
a very indescent proposal from a sleazeball who mailed me from a fake id and expects me agree to sleep with him when I have no idea who the hell he is
and this one takes the cake....mails me...asks me out....adds me on gtalk....keeps trying to talk to me when I have refused outright....and it turns out he is married....

And I have to spend two years here...god help me.....

Alleine

2005-10-14T22:58:00.000-07:00

Thats the german word for alone. And thats how I feel here. Yeah I'm still at home. And yeah,I'm aware this makes me a chronically depressed person. Come to think of it, this is the only time I have to be depressed or angry or feel any strong emotion. Coz tomorrow onwards I get too busy to even feel anything or rather, to let myself feel anything, not even hunger. I hate it when I do this. Manage to feel like a lone ranger even when I'm surrounded with so many ppl....ppl who love me...or ppl who have to love me coz they are family....friends...friends who love me just that we aren't on the same wavelength anymore....guys...lots of guys who claim to love me but are in love with an illusion that they've created...these are times I feel that if I died I'd have no regrets....the pain will be momentary...for me and for ppl who know me...for I don't form a significant part of anyone's life...my parents you'd say...but theres a spare one and I can be replaced...I can be replaced in every persons life I know :)....Sorry for the sappy post....

Homewards bound....

2005-10-08T19:14:00.000-07:00

I'm going home :) Weird feel abt it though....felt very sad when my friends were leaving last night...but after they left I didn't wanna stay here anymore...I'll blog from my place :) take care ppl and Happy Dussehra

Happy Birthday to me :)

2005-10-03T03:31:00.000-07:00

Ok...everyone got my earlier post wrong. Yesterday was the last day I could call myself 20 and today onwards I am 21. But as far as I am concerned I stopped aging three years ago :) So I am 18 till I die :) With the addition that now I can booze and get wasted ;) Have a great day ppl {{{hugs}}}

And this is the last day...

2005-10-02T09:54:00.000-07:00

I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20. I am 20

Beware!!!

2005-09-22T03:04:00.000-07:00

IITK isn't safe anymore...infact whichever road I'm let loosed on isn't safe anymore :P. I was in a head-on collision with a guy on a bicycle today. He fell... and for a change I didn't... (pssst...I was at fault and I did apologise profusely)...I even asked him whether he was ok...I guess it didn't look genuine enough coz I was a lil too relieved that it wasn't me who fell. Obviously..you have to look at the humungous 1 inch in diameter mark on my knee from my earlier rendevous with the streets of IITK to understand my reaction. My friends keep hitting guys over here and this time I have a story to tell...I hope this is my last collision...but until I get proficient at it...BEWARE :)

Its that time of the year....

2005-09-15T00:18:00.000-07:00

Its time again...its time that I go a bit more insane...a bit more hyperactive....a bit more romantic....yep...its raining here...and this time I'm enjoying it on my cycle. I'm so glad I've learnt cycling. I'm sure ppl who ride around me think otherwise (I've fallen twice, once trying to save myself from a bumble bee and once trying to save a guy who jumped out of nowhere in front of my cycle, I hurt myself on the same place both the times). There are a zillion times I feel alone and I hate it....but right now I'd just love to go some place lonely and play in the rain :) Maybe I'll just try to go some place without getting lost and forgetting my way back :)....take care ppl :)

The queen of the 'unrequitted love' genre

2005-09-09T01:25:00.000-07:00

The heading says it all....someone said, 'True love is the unrequitted kind'. In that case I don't think I wanna be truly in love with someone...let it all be superficial and let us all be happy...it sucks. Anyway....before ppl start getting worried abt me, I'm fine....no tears...no melodrama...no sitting in dark cold places....and definitely no regrets...just a calm, can't call it nice, but my heart's at peace with my brain. Glad I don't have to face clashes. Glad it didn't end badly...I just hope he is as strong as I am. I still love the world...and I ain't bitter abt guys...my world hasn't crumbled down....I'm still worried abt the zook I scored in one test and happy abt the full score in the other.... the mess food still tastes pathetic and my cycling skills still worry me...I'm still trying to learning bengali in vain and my hindi and marathi skills are still on a steady decline...life goes on...life goes on...life goes on...

To all and sundry...

2005-08-25T23:47:00.000-07:00

The owner of this blog is swamped and more, with studies. She has taken a forced hiatus from blogging. This notice is effective till 7th of September 2005. So keen is she on keeping to this notice that she has packed off her computer and decided to shift her bed to the library and then mostly to the Health Centre. Till then....Khuda hafis...bbye...Tchuss...ciao :)

And finally...

2005-08-07T11:13:00.000-07:00

Ok..I'm back. I've had a really busy two weeks here at IITK and I don't even know from where to begin writing. There's a zillion things I have to say here. Ok, I'll do what I do best...I'll organise in points.

The Institute: Word cannot justify the beauty of this place. It is just amazing. Greenery and open spaces and peacocks everywhere, even in our Acad-block and they seem to be so comfortable with people. Some of the hotels could easily pass off as three-star hotels, including mine. Though my room is a pentagon and the heat is unbearable due to bad ventilation. It has the worst planning but one of the best amenities. We have a reading room filled with magazines and newspapers, a book club which is like a mini library, a computer centre, a beauty parlour, a well equipped gymn, a communication centre and more stuff I'm still to discover. All blocks are a lil far from each other and everyone uses a cycle to cover distances ie. everyone but me coz I haven't learnt to ride one yet and it seems a norm for girls to learn riding once they get here. The rules are relaxed enough to give us maximum freedom. We can stay out all night long and they aren't strict about guys and gals mixing around , we can stay in each others hostels till 12 at night. But they are strict enough so that the guys can't get too fresh with girls and know the limits. We can even face expulsion if we mail somebody without their permission. The campus is absolutely safe for girls and we can enjoy so much too. The first week, I enjoyed the campus to the max even at night. You kinda get the attitude that sleeping is a waste of precious time.
The crowd/My friends: My class has just 3 girls, two of who's boyfriends stay on campus. So many times I do find myself without company for they have to spend time with their guys. But I do hang around with girls from the other department coz we girls need to stick together for most of the MSc guys are hopeless, they not only feel shy to talk but wouldn't dither to ignore us if we approach them. So friday night we had a pajama party and rocked the entire IIT :) We had some coffee in the basket ball court and were energised enough for people to think that we might be high on something, and then we decided to take a walk around the extremely beautiful campus. We definitely made everyone feel our presence. My roomie is extremely adorable and we get along like a house on fire. I've also got friendly with this MTech second year guy which was a really smart thing to do coz he was my partner for my nightly strolls in the first week and was kinda a guide, getting me familiar with my surroundings, rules and making sure I didn't feel lonely coz I didn't have company.

More will come the next time I update coz now I need to hit my bed...ciao :)

Here I go again....

2005-07-21T10:36:00.000-07:00

So all my bags are packed. All the junk is cleared. My room is all spick and span and shining bright and EMPTY. It felt miserable to take my charts off the walls of my room....that was the only time a tear traced its way down my cheek and dropped on my tshirt to be sucked in by the cotton into oblivion. It felt like my birthday has come a lil earlier than this year round coz I received calls from all and sundry in the midst of heavy duty packing. Felt nice.....Felt miserable.....I'l love it :)

My first time :)

2005-07-18T15:55:00.000-07:00

Ok....would love to make a long post out of this but since I am on a slow dial up connection and the fact that I left my Harry Potter due to a brain wave I had about 5 mins ago, I'm gonna make this short and sweet....This is my first post from my brand new laptop, courtesy my very generous father :) but due to some technical glitches I couldn't access the net earlier and was limited to simply uploading my music and ebooks from my ol' faithful desktop :)... more will come sooner :)

Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

2005-07-14T13:39:00.000-07:00

No, this post isn't about the movie. Is it odd for an otherwise absolutely feminine, ladylike girl to wish and crave for a punchbag? I so wish I could punch something really really hard. All the more better if it were a person. Where are all those disgusting guys who hit on me when I'm in dire need?

What is it about the night that appeals to me so much? I'm a morning person. I love to wake up my highly irritated friends early in the morning especially if its a Saturday. But I'm also a complete night person. It is the time for introspection, for bonding, for a warm cup of really strong coffee. Don't care if it won't let me sleep. Its also the time for U2, Train, Goo Goo Dolls, Aerosmith, Eagles, Phil Collins, Atomic Kitten...

I need another cup of coffee....

Observations of a velli*

2005-07-12T03:11:00.000-07:00

We've experienced blank calls, let me take the liberty of adding that we might have made some of them too. Then with email, came spams which extended itself to spam offlines on yahoo messenger and somewhere in the recent past and current present, we've been introduced to those heartwrenching SOS forwards on our cellphone. And now ladies and gentlemen, let me bring to your attention, the latest in irritation technology......spams/blank comments on your blog..... :clap::clap::clap: :)

Let me throw some light on this latest invention in irritation technology. This new innovation is currently limited to blogs hosted by rediffblogs but I'm sure the day isn't far when they discover the anonymous option of blogger comments and the fact that the very same technology can be applied to those hosted by Haloscan.

Ok, jokes apart, there seems to be a person on the net who's been leaving blank comments without fail since June end and whose daily itinerary might look something like this,

0600 Rising time
0615 to 0715 Strenous exercise, must include special exercises for the thumb and fingers and memory exercises, what with all the jumbled urls these bloggers use.
0715 to 0800 Wash and dress up
0800 to 0900 Breakfast and newspaper reading, must keep a look out to see whether I'm famous yet
0900 to 1200 most important job of the day which is gonna make me famous. Leave blank messages, continuosly without wasting a minute on every Rediffblog I can lay my hands or more appropriately eyes on.
1200 lunch time and the much needed break from commenting.
1230 must get back to the lesser mortals life for my great work Cannot be detected

After some research and resourcefulness I also came upon a page from his/her diary:
I worked relentlessly all day today. Worked on my pet project too. Infact I got so carried way that worked pat my midday mark and kept at it for another couple of hours. A slip up I can't afford. Glad I wasn't discovered or else I might lose my life for it, what with all the people hankering for fame. I am so proud myself. What an ingenius idea!! Its almost like charity work. Imagine when the President asks me, "So what exactly do you do?" I'll answer,"I leave blank comments on blogs to help the poor souls increase their comment count". I know the revolution will catch on but I'll still be the brain behind it. I could even start a huge corporation and hire hundreds of workers for me. Who knows I might even float it on the Stock Exchange. But it'll have to be a hush-hush affair, after all its like charity :) Oh my god....I could even leave real comments instead of the blank ones. But that can happen only when I start the corporation for I alone can't weave words there....I need more manpower and I'll hire the best brains to do it for me.... I feel like a messiah ^-^

Are we on the brink of salvation? Is there really a weirdo thinking on these lines? Is my comments count ever gonna hit the roof all thanks to one brave soul?? Should I shift back to rediffblogs??? Questions galore....

* Bombay slang for a useless person

And now for some boy bashing

2005-07-10T23:10:00.000-07:00

Our blogosphere has turned anti-feminist. If you don't know what I'm talking about then I suggest you take a look at these one two posts and I also suggest you take a look at the comments section where 'millions' have pledged their support. I don't why the girls have turned traitors and speaking against their own clan but I can clearly see why the guys seem so peeved with us- its cause they were dealt a raw deal.

Being a girl is so much nicer. Let me make a point by point presentation.

You are your dad's favorite (doesn't apply if you have a sister and definitely doesn't apply if she's younger than you). Consider a small quartet family, mumma, dadda, twins-boy, girl. Now suppose if the twins are college going kids and due to some crazy reason only one of them gets to have a cell phone. Who'll it be? Why, the girl ofcourse duh.... and thats all thanks to some guys who've behaved in such manner that's made the parents feel insecure about not being in touch with their daughter 24/7.
Nature made the female of the species less attractive and colourful but she was clearly partial to girls coz as you can see, we're definitely more vibrant. Lets pick a point where everyone can agree. Picture a typical species of a girl and a guy in shorts. Who's better to look at? I'm sure everybody will agree that a pair of scrawny and really reaaally hairylegs is not attractive from any dimensions.
About girls decking up too much, has it ever occured to you that we dress up coz we wanna look nice for ourselves coz we're tired of looking at men who don't know what a nose/ear hair clipper is. Excellent example: Laloo Prasad Yadav. Bottomline,there are girls who don't dress up so that guys can look and lech at us we do it to make us feel good about ourselves.
We revel in options. When you go to a Shoppers Stop or Westside or Pantaloons or some such place, who has more floor space? Who has more variety? Who has more options to choose from? We girls never feel bored of formal dressing for work coz we've like a zillion things we can choose from as opposed to guys who have to stick to their trousers and shirts and if you're not in a place that can substitute for a human boiler, your business suits. I have just three words : HA HA HA :)

And lastly, we can do anything. From actually creating life to sustaining it and making it worthwhile. We are mighty influential people. We can take active interest in earning and lending a helping hand to the nominal head of the family and we also have the option of staying out of the rat race and just concentrating on the family :) We here of women proving their mettle in a man's world, have you heard of a man proving his mettle anywhere, be it a man's or a woman's world? What is a woman's world? Nothing and everything, we are omnipresent :) we fit in everywhere.

I rest my case : I love being a girl :)

Back to school

2005-07-01T06:13:00.000-07:00

Remember I'd said I'm waiting for something really important, well, it didn't happen. I waited three years for it and I was disappointed. I'm ok, luckily I had prepared myself for rejection. Also the fact that my back up was IIT instead of the Mumbai University course really helped. I would've been hysterical if that'd be the case.

Anyway, I went to school this weekend. Had a blast with my sis. I was missing her like crazy. Also met all my teachers and my princi, glad that they remember me fondly :) They tell me that my sis is very talkative. I told them its a genetic thingy, all women in my family can't keep their mouths shut :) It felt amazing to be back in Panchgani. Like I'm back home. The rains just make it all the more beautiful and I feel so comfortable. I so wanna be back at school. When I finished school I was crying like a bride would at the end of her wedding day. I hope I feel the same about Kanpur when I have to leave it.

Ok, and finally, we're having a party at my German class. Its a sort of farewell for my instructor who's leaving for Germany, this guy who's going to Cambridge for his PhD and yours truly who'll unfortunately not be able to complete her course. I'm sure we'll rock Max Mueller :) Tchuss!!

Bitter truths und Deutch Akzent

2005-06-28T11:34:00.000-07:00

Yes I did say that I wanted to get away from Bombay and stay away from my parents but now I also happen to be counting the days I have remaining to spend with my parents and I'm dreading the day I gotta leave. This is me eating my own words and they don't taste that bad. So the thing is, I don't wanna leave. If I thought I was vehement about going away to study last year then I don't think I quite got the meaning of the word vehement then. I really don't wanna go :( and I can't do anything about it. Would I feel differently about it if it was another place? No. I'm gonna miss having long chats with my dad. I'm gonna miss going shopping with my mum. This might be the only time in my life that I might avoid shopping and people who know me will go in a state of shock on the brink of coma if they hear that. And I'm gonna miss my friends. I'm as protected a girl as they come, not only do my parents protect me but my friends have always taken special care of me. Will I find such friends in the Nerd Haven??? I half expect guys with hair dripping with mustard oil wearing thick soda glasses and those dirtyish white shirts with grey stripes and pants that barely reach the ankles who epitomise nerdyness. I know its not gonna be that bad but Kanpur just makes you wary of everyone around you. OK, enough of cribbing for the day.
Lets get to better things. I'm having an amazing time at my German class. My classmates are very friendly and the teaching is very interactive. We have loads of fun. It doesn't feel like someone's twisting our ears and making us listen to the droning sounds of the tutor repeating tongue twisters. I drive my parents crazy by talking in German but I need to talk in order to be fluent in it. Thankfully, I've picked up the German accent very quickly but its seriously affecting my English accent what with brain sending counfusing signals to my tongue resulting into a funny mix of stiff-upper-lipped Brit and the pronounce-every-letter German.Been indulging in serious retail therapy....my mum gifted me a new cell phone which's been keeping me quite busy. So busy that I haven't been able to finish The Bourne Identity by Robert Luldlum and I've been reading it since last Thursday. Its never taken me this long to finish a book. Ofcourse, I've only been reading it in the trains while travelling to class and its almost impossible to read in there coz its so jam packed that I'm just thankful that I reach my destination in one piece. That's one aspect of Bombay that I don't think I'll miss :) Ok...I need to wake up early so I need to sign off now......Tchuss!!!

PS : Forgive my typos please...no time to proofread :)

Oh Mommy! I'm an IITian :)

2005-06-23T21:50:00.000-07:00

I'm an IITian :) Just saw the first list at the IIT website and I'm heading it :) I'd always wanted to be an IITian and I couldn't appear for JEE but now I've got through :) I'm so happy :)

Update: I'm joining on 24th July :)

Just chatter

2005-06-21T04:31:00.000-07:00

Its really difficult to keep blogging when you're on a vacation with absolutely nothing to do and each and every new day perfectly resembles the day before. So here I am just chattering. Another reason for chattering is that my bestest friend was out of town for the last entire week and she just returned on Sunday but with me staying at my granny's place for almost a month now, its almost impossible to talk to her like we normally would. I hate saying this but its finally sinking in that things are indeed gonna change. I'm not gonna be able to talk to her any given time of the day (or night), I can't simply say to her, "See ya tomorrow at college". The one thing I'm missing the most is all the eateries around my college. I might be staying at home but I know zilch about my surroundings, on the other hand you take me to my college area and I'm perfectly capable of navigating around there, knowing the speciality of each eatery....the juice stall, sandwichwalla, DPs, Mani's when you're low on cash, Oven Fresh for the birthday treats, pizzas and pastries, Seven Eleven for the softies, Garnish when its saree day, traditional day and all those off days at college, Great Punjab when you really wanna rip someone off....hmmmm....I wanna get back to college!!!

Anyway, I've joined Max Mueller for German and now I spend approximately 3 hours travelling everyday. But atleast I'm occupied, I was driving my mum crazy :). Met a lot of interesting people in class, theres a girl who looks absolutely gorgeous, almost a goddess. There's also someone who's learning German so that she can communicate with her in laws, she met her fiance on Shaadi.com. Just proves that Indian women are in high demand :) I've also joined a library and currently I'm reading Dan Brown's Deception Point. I've read all the other Dan Brown novels. I was reading it in the train and I was so engrossed in it that I missed my stop and went one station ahead. But I calmly sat down and continued reading coz the same train was gonna return to my stop. I used to laugh when this happened to my mum coz she falls asleep in the train, but it wasn't that funny when it happened to me....blah....I'll be more careful tomorrow on....And finally, the monsoons are here :) I'm grabbing every opportunity to play in the rain like a lil kid. Now that I'm back from my granny's place I can't go on the terrace to play coz they keep it shut, but I make sure I do something about it after all thsi could be my last monsoon in Bombay. Its such a romantic climate, pity I'm enjoying it all by myself...ok, lastly, I don't know how to begin a post and I certainly don't know how to end, so if this feels like an abrupt ending....maybe someone can smoothen it out for me :)

Black Rules!!!

2005-06-16T00:08:00.000-07:00

For quite some time I've been feeling bored to write something on my blog and I wasn't even able to write good posts. I thought and thought (believe me thinking is a task in itself ) and drew the conclusion that the reason I wasn't able to put something up was that everytime I came to my blog I felt sleepy. The colour pink doesn't really go down well with me. And so I've decided to stick to my black :) It never goes outta style...I hope I'm able to put something up soon :)

Corrective action

2005-06-10T03:44:00.000-07:00

What do I mean by corrective action? I was sick of looking at the same post on my blog, so I decide to update it.I have no idea what to write right now....so I'm just gonna randomly blabber. I have been walking about with my tooth brush in my bag for the past month or so. No I'm not a weirdo who collects all kinda junk in my bag. I've been staying at my granny's place every night and returning home in the morning and I don't know whether I'm gonna go back but it invariably happens that I do go back. Thats the thing about staying at your grandparents place. You're so immensely pampered and you always get your way done. But the best thing is not waking up to an empty house. When I stay at my place I always wake up to an empty house and then I get this feeling of being alone. I'm an all day (and all night) person. I love waking up, and flashing someone a bright smile and saying a very peppy good morning and being asked for breakfast or preparing breakfast and outlining the days plans (which currently go to the tunes of, "Nothing, just lazing around")...you get the picture.

And thats half the reason why I've been away from the blogosphere. I came across something today on K's blog that brought me to tears. I knew that one phase of my life is over. I'm a graduate now. And I'm gonna leave Bombay(no matter what the Sainik's might say, I'm still gonna call in Bombay). I strived all year long to make sure I leave Bombay coz I'm a fiercely independent person and I was really feeling cramped staying at home. I love my parents, but maybe I need the distance to actually value every moment I spend with them and understand their concern for me and maybe then I'll understand all the restrictions on me. I already miss my college. I'm gonna miss bunking lectures, believe me I've tried every trick in the book to bunk lectures. From the very in-your-face mass bunking to the very sneaky jumping from the windows trick. It was a surpirise to see me in class. There was this one particular professor who was the most soporific thing in the world and we still had fun in her lectures. I used to wear a salwar kameez on the days of her lectures and listen to the radio during class and hide the ear phones under the dupatta :). She is one person who I'm gonna miss the most.

Right after one person. How I hate long distance relationships....Anyway, I've bored you people enough so I better shut up here :). Have fun all and please pray for me coz I'm waiting for this one very important thing and I hope it happens soon :keeping fingers crossed: :)

Of too much publicity and shoe politics...(Updated)

2005-06-01T23:47:00.000-07:00

When can you say that you're receiving publicity? When you are receiving emails from strange people askng whether you got AIR-1 for IIT JEE. When can you say that its turned into too much publicity? When you receive offlines on your yahoo messenger which simply ask you, which IIT? Its seriously amusing to see the sudden surge in interest in me. Until yesterday it was just all my relatives calling me up and asking me to repeat the same thing over and over again. And if you think that once you do well in something, you'll stop receiving lectures, then you're highly mistaken. I still receive them lectures, which go to the tune off, "Don't think this is the end, you're gonna have to work harder to maintain that status quo". And to top it off, now since mum can't scold me about my studies anymore, she's taken to scolding me along with my sis everytime she's scolding her. Its like buy one, get one free, even if I had nothing to do with whatever she's scolding her for. Blah, thats never gonna change, the bane of being an elder sister :)

Coming to shoes, my sis is going back to school and that dame's been shopping for the past three weekends. Now the only thing remaining are her shoes. That poor girl has been cursed with big feet and we've been searching heaven and earth to find her a pair that fits. My mum's been dropping hints about searching in the men's section, its only poor lil me standing between D and the humiliation of wearing extra wide men's shoes :grin: Ofcourse, like all women, I never have enough shoes, so everywhere I go, I fall in love with atleast one pair which is promptly refused on accounts of the no. of shoes already filling my shoe rack and spilling over to everyone elses racks at home...hmph...me thinks, I need to get my scissors to work and render some of 'em shoes useless ;) Thats not the end though, since both me and mum have the same shoe size, its getting increasingly difficult to convince my mum that I really haven't bought any shoes recently coz I invariably land up wearing the ones she owns :grin: Anyway, I have somehow convinced her to let me buy a pair today coz its the only place we haven't been to as yet on our shoe quest (courtesy, my ever prepared lawyer who goes by the name of 'The Granny' )....hoping this is the end to D's woes :)

PS : A note to all who've linked me, please change the link to my new blog address, I miss my old blog evertime I see the link to it :(

Update: Bought a pair of really high heels and I am seriously wondering how am I gonna walk in them :)

Happy but peeved

2005-05-30T00:13:00.000-07:00

Off late I'm being pampered like crazy and all of a sudden I'm being noticed by one and all. I've become everyone's favorite....fave daughter, fave grandchild, fave niece, fave friend's-daughter...(my sisters must be detesting me for hogging all the limelight). My phones been ringing all the time with people wanting to know for sure that what they've heard is true (come to think of I still can't believe it) and I'm being asked what is it that I want ( I'm sure my parents regret for asking me that :) ). Moreover, I've converted my two sisters into believers, believers that a BSc is not a useless course and theres a sudden spurt of deciding ambitions.

All this due to my one ranking. The last entrance test I attempted. Now when I think of it, I was bugged coz I wanted a break, I went with bare minimum preparation and with recommendations from someone to botch it coz its gonna make me go to a god-forsaken-place to study for the next couple of years. I waltzed outta the test and I didn't think much of it coz I thought it was effectively botched (though I didn't do it purposely).

Now, if this falls on the ear of all those who're using me as an example to motivate their kids, they'll drop me like a hot potato and suddenly I'm no longer this achiever. Isn't that unfair? Why does our society value marks so much? Some people are intelligent, it just doesn't show in their mark sheet, why do such students get second class treatment? Why can't a child be valued for being a nice child or a good person? The stark difference in treatment before and after my result day is whats making me happy but extremely peeved. But I think I'll get over it (some serious retail therapy on the cards....me making mental lists already ;) )

PS : I'm getting good with this html thing...this look should suffice till I find a better template and someone to help me put it up :)

Back with a bang :)

2005-05-27T23:47:00.000-07:00

Hola mi amigos!! I'm back :) The last couple of days were really difficult and I really missed blogging a lot. I deleted my blog out of an impulse and believe me I'm kicking myself for it. I wouldn't mind restoring that blog but I'd like to continue blogging here, So if somebody does know how to restore a blog please be a peach and guide me through it :) And if thats not possible then I did save that entire blog and if someone wants to read it I wouldn't mind mailing it :)

A lots been happening with me and I'm about to have a huge change in my life. I'll blog about it when things are a little more certain. Have fun ppl :)