Friday, October 14, 2005

Alleine

Thats the german word for alone. And thats how I feel here. Yeah I'm still at home. And yeah,I'm aware this makes me a chronically depressed person. Come to think of it, this is the only time I have to be depressed or angry or feel any strong emotion. Coz tomorrow onwards I get too busy to even feel anything or rather, to let myself feel anything, not even hunger. I hate it when I do this. Manage to feel like a lone ranger even when I'm surrounded with so many ppl....ppl who love me...or ppl who have to love me coz they are family....friends...friends who love me just that we aren't on the same wavelength anymore....guys...lots of guys who claim to love me but are in love with an illusion that they've created...these are times I feel that if I died I'd have no regrets....the pain will be momentary...for me and for ppl who know me...for I don't form a significant part of anyone's life...my parents you'd say...but theres a spare one and I can be replaced...I can be replaced in every persons life I know :)....Sorry for the sappy post....

11 Comments:

Anonymous tony said...

Forget the sappy post and don't be sorry for it, is there a max mueller bhavan near mulund. i want to enrol for a german class. BTW maybe everyone really loves you, and you just don't want to see it??

5:22 AM, October 15, 2005  
Anonymous abhinav said...

hey brooding kid , wassup ?

10:08 PM, October 16, 2005  
Blogger Shreyansh said...

Life is as we have it.
Life is beautiful.
Life is a series of choices. And it is your choice as to whether you want to be depressed or happy.
And for your non repenting self , dont think of losing the gift that is life.
You are special like everyone else.You will never lose your value.Dont ever forget it.
I know this is a little evangelistic but hope it makes you feel better. :)

6:40 AM, October 17, 2005  
Anonymous Grey Shades said...

No one can replace you kiddo!!!! and you know that!

3:41 AM, October 18, 2005  
Blogger phatichar said...

Now, now...the world aint that bad...just let down your hair for a while and it'll all come back to you...am sure. :)

5:48 AM, October 20, 2005  
Blogger DeePDiveR said...

I feel the same way as you. Funny how you get to know ppl who r like you in this information superhighway. But I just have this gut feeling that u r strong enough to see through the depressing times (wish i cud say that for myself)

11:49 AM, October 23, 2005  
Blogger Vidhi said...

hi angel...how r u? came here after long! sab khairiat?!

11:33 AM, October 24, 2005  
Blogger Darth Midnightmare said...

Strange...strange because I had the very same thoughts a few days ago and stranger still because I spoke to a friend last night who had the same thoughts. Perhaps they are "normal" at this age. But there's something that then rises up and tells me that it's the same for everyone in that sense...

As for people who create illusions, everyone does about everyone...including our own selves. You have an impression of yourself. That is why there are times when you're surprised you said or did something. Because none of us really knows ourselves and that reaction went against our self-impression...

Ultimately, live life...for yourself..nothing matters as much as the satisfaction of being happy about yourself. It may come from making someone happy...or may come from indulging yourself...but either way, it's about you and noone else...

7:07 AM, October 25, 2005  
Blogger Shreyansh said...

Long time .. no post!

10:43 AM, October 29, 2005  
Blogger Shreyansh said...

Well now that Antaragni rocked you back from depression , its time to get your blog rocking.

Cheers!

1:58 AM, October 31, 2005  
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